When do you know how to follow your intuition? Some days I just want to throw my hands up and stop listening to everybody talking and actually think for myself for a minute. Stop listening to all of their opinions. All of their set views on how things should be. What you need to do is this, what needs to happen is this because of this and that and this because of that and this. NO. I do not want to live my life in constant control. I need the freedom and peace of mind to choose what I would like to do with my time here in existence. You have no clue what that may be, so don't go around throwing your carefully planned safety net over me or your vane validity of reasoning down my throat.  I will not sit comfortably. I mean do you ever experience anything if you are always trying to be something? Always looking for some sort of validation or reasoning or acceptance from somebody else. I say, fuck that. I'm tired of people telling me what I should or shouldn't be doing. They don't know what's good for me or what I need to be doing with my life. Don't give me your opinion when you aren't in my body to make the choice.

Does this make me vane? Thinking that no one knows what is right for myself. I don't t\think so, I think we sacrifice ourselves so often for someone else's dream or play along with their game that we forget on the surface level of what truly makes us happy and what will make our heart jump up and down every single day of our lives. It isn't money, it isn't a trailer, it isn't a home, it isn't a car, it isn't a carefully planned thought out, perfectly remedied idea of a life that will bring us the most joy. It is the simplicity and appreciation for our very own breathe and heartbeat and that of everyone else's on this planet. Every species, every plant, every water of body and so on. Yet, why do we believe that we have to create this fool proof plan that will work out perfectly and create this never ending cycle of never enough. Why is it so hard to want what we have? Why does it always have to be on to the next thing when had just begun.

Can't we just take off our clothes and run through the sprinklers at night?

Are we all lying to ourselves?
Thinking this is it.
What are you waiting for?