Dear Breanna,

I am writing this to you because I have seen you in the darkest places and for too long I have left you there. I abandoned you because it hurt too much to be seen, to be heard, to be open. I heard you say you didn't have much to offer, that you were too scattered, too forgetful, too emotional. You even went as far as to say you'd rather not open yourself to anyone in fear of that dreaded rejection, the all too familiar facade of being alone and preferring it. I want you to know that you are beautiful. Your spontaneous and erratic nature is what helps you grow and shed your scales. Who told you that you had to sit still and dig your heals into the dirt and continue along any particular path. It's okay to change your direction, it is okay for you to change your mind and opinion on every possible scenario and event. I like that about you, it opens possibilities and burns boxes. Use that fire to burn your own trail. It's okay that you can't make up your mind and make a decision, or change it at the last minute. It makes your life exciting. Don't worry about getting anywhere, you are already here. You are worthy of friendship and companionship. You are beautiful, have I told you that already ? Your sadness and desperation opens space for joy and humility. Your tears slowly move you into yourself and shapes your best being; just like a river shapes rocks and creates new formations as it flows. I love you. I love you and not just the best parts about you. I love that you are willing to give it all up, knowing that whatever is next is better than it has ever been. I love that you are never complacent and strive for the best this life has to offer. Don't give up, I believe in you. In your darkest hour, I still see the light shining inside of you. You are the best friend, mother, daughter, sister, and employee anyone could ask for. I love you, I really do. I love your voice and the way you speak with carefully chosen words of expression. I love the way that you look deep down into another person's eyes and see that you are forever equal in nature and love. I love the way you walk and the way you look around you and notice every little thing inside and outside of this world. I love the scar on the lower half of your belly because it is a reminder of the day you brought your beautiful daughter into the world. I love your stretch marks because it is proof you grew and carried a whole human in your body. I love the scars on your face from stress related pimples, they show you care and are willing to open space for the hurt you are feeling. I love the way you are always up for a fun time yet always make time to be quiet and alone. I love the way you extend your love with every part of you. I love you as you are; in any and every condition. Today, tomorrow, and forever.