And there are many instances where I feel overwhelmed and buried underneath all the mess of this life. I gleen for simple tasks, simple virtues, and simple adventures that require little effort yet yield a magnitude of joy and gratitude for life and living. My anxiety sometimes likes to blow things up, way up ! It blows up into a big production with everything and everyone needing a certain place and a certain way to act, myself included. I search for the best costume, think of the best lines and go out in search for the best props that will win the award for Best Motion Picture. And a script for each scene and how it will play out and what it will get me. Before you know it, I have a set that is filled with odds and ends, clothes that don't fit quite right, a chest full of written lines that I keep going back to and reading for some sort of sign. A way out perhaps is what I am looking for but instead through all this anxious planning I create a deeper hole in the messiness of it all. What I'd prefer, or at least desperately need while sifting through embittered ends is space and minimal distraction. A place to create freely, a place to love willingly and openly. A place where my interests are minute and tactful where the container is open and you can see light shining in, through and out of it. I don't want to examine the container any longer, nor do I want to change it's color or placement. Perhaps it will move on it's own in some time and change in it's own way without my meddling. I no longer want to tip it upside down and see what comes out, nor do I want to throw it against a wall and obliterate it completely. No, I want to cherish it with all of my heart, soul and mind. I want to take great care of it and treat it with integrity, sincerity and tenderness. For the container is what gives me life and I must not take it for granted or think that I could create anymore of it then I've already been given.
Symphony of Simplicity
Cooking
Reading
Hiking
Running
Swimming in the Ocean
Singing
Dancing
Creating and Playing Music
Boyfriend(friend)
Friends
Mothers
Fathers
Sisters
Brothers
Daughters
Teachers
Driving
Shopping
Cleaning
Writing
Kissing
Hugging
Petting
Cuddling
Holding
Typing
Listening
Talking
Nothing
Everything
Everyone
Night
Day
Morning
Evening
Afternoon
Breakfast
Lunch
Dinner
Snack(s)
Art
God
Hallelujah !
Amen !
Our God is Mighty, He is Great
For His Creation is One and One is All
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