Monday, November 4, 2013
Perceive to Receive
do not be soft
when it comes to what you want
tactful and careful
will not always please
do not be soft
it is not something to be caught
a choice to be made; make it willingly
fortitude and audacity
will not lead astray
stand ground
dig heels deep
don't let up
for the keep
& remember, always take the leap
& remember, create openly & do not dream solely while asleep
Awaken to See
Eyes bright
only bright sights, no fights
vivid myriad of scenes, to hell with the damn energy fiends!
Awaken to the dream
to the land of laser beams !
Zap through by any means
Reveal yourself through being
to the land of laser beams !
You can be so fucking maddening
chaos in control
Sporadic Spectrum I see
tune IN, all you seem to do is mull
Awaken to the dream
Land of Laser Beams !
Eyes bright
only bright sights, no fights
vivid myriad of scenes, to hell with the damn energy fiends!
Awaken to the dream
to the land of laser beams !
Zap through by any means
Reveal yourself through being
to the land of laser beams !
You can be so fucking maddening
chaos in control
Sporadic Spectrum I see
tune IN, all you seem to do is mull
Awaken to the dream
Land of Laser Beams !
Thursday, September 5, 2013
Wednesday, August 28, 2013
Friday, August 23, 2013
Inquiry of self, challenge accepted, perspective renewed
This past week has been full of self-realizations and observations of the people around me. Oh wait, that's no different than any other week but I guess this week my confusion was encompassed by the acceptance and disapproval of people in our lives and how it can affect our own personal happiness.
This thought came up earlier this week as I was wandering through the internet on my phone. I have heard these two words before but never really grasped the idea, most likely due to not taking the dive into the depths of information on the ever so wondrous world wide web. Where else would I learn about it ? Well, I finally did and it has helped me to understand myself a whole lot and others as well, which is always helpful in trying to live symbiotically with others and maintaining a happy state. So, I'll fill you in on a little of what I have learned and also applying it has helped to give me a whole new perspective.
First introduced by the psychologist Carl Jung, the traits extrovert-introvert are a central dimension of human personality theories. According to Jung, introversion is "an attitude type characterized by orientation in life through subjective psychic contents." (focus on one's inner psychic activity) Pretty much an introvert gains their strength and energy by spending time alone, content in their thoughts and lost in their creative minds. Lost in a good way though. They usually gravitate towards the arts and prefer to have a few close friends and would rather talk about meaningful topics rather than just talking to talk aka "small talk." Being in large groups of people with a lot of activity and emotions going on can really drain an introverts energy leaving them tired and perhaps a little on edge. And then there are the extroverts, "an attitude characterized by concentration of interest on the external object." (the outside world) Extroverts are almost the exact opposite of introverts, gaining their strength and energy from other people and real life situations. They find pleasure by placing themselves in large social gatherings such as parties and community events. This is how they gain their energy and also how they prefer to exude it. Being alone can be very tiresome and boring for an extrovert. Okay, so introverts and extroverts, pretty simple concept and once fully understood
it can allow you to accept yourself and can also play a big part in accepting others that you normally cannot get along with simply because you receive and give energy in different ways.
I discovered that I am most definitely an introvert and it helped me to understand why sometimes I just flat out did not want to be around anyone because I was too tired from "socializing". I'd like to think that I am a pretty social person and I love going out with friends and going to parties but it never dawned on me that doing all that and being around a lot of people was actually emotionally and physically draining me. There would be days where I was just so tired and didn't want to be around anyone else but myself just so that I could recuperate. It wasn't from lack of sleep either, I thought it was so bizarre and I would fight it and try to keep up with the outside world. That just made it worse and resulted in me acting like a grumpy toddler who hasn't had their daily nap. It wasn't fun. After reading about introverts it helped me to realize that I really do need to be alone a lot of the time for my own personal health and well-being and should not feel guilty for turning down going out to socialize. I now know that you can't force yourself to be someone you are not and it's okay to do things for yourself because in the end, it is you and only you walking around in your body in this world. No one else, just you. So naturally, being around people who gain energy from large groups of people and constant attention to one self can really be a challenge for me sometimes. I never understood them. They came off as obnoxious and arrogant to me. After reading about this whole new concept of personality theories, I began to apply it in my everyday life and related it to my interactions with others and it has given me a whole new perspective ! Life actually presented itself with an opportunity to apply what I had learned and it helped me to see things more clearly. Always a good thing. The opportunity came about when I had met one of my roommate's friends, she was staying for a couple days. I usually always like people and always try and accept them but she was becoming increasingly hard to like as the night went on. She was loud. She talked about herself incessantly and had an act to go along with everything she said. She was overwhelming and it got to the point where I had to leave the room to be alone for some time. In that time, I reflected back on what I had learned and I soon realized that she was in fact 100% of the extrovert nature and instead of despising her and having these negative feelings towards her and also myself for feeling that way I just simply saw her for who she was and accepted everything about her. It was a huge relief and weight off my shoulders because now I was able to interact with her, in short bouts of course. I ended up coming out of my room and admitting to her that she was a lot for me to take in and it felt nice to come clean about how I felt. I talked to her about introverts and extroverts and continued to describe my nature to her. We instantly bonded and both felt comfortable just talking to one another. All because I simply reached out to her and cleared the confusion through acceptance of things that we cannot change.
Not only does it help you to understand yourself, it helps to understand other people and I believe that is equally just as important. I'll admit, I have trouble truly accepting people for all of who they are and I think we can all agree that this is a chronic problem in today's society. Refusing a person for who they are causes all sorts of bad feelings and who wants bad feelings toward another person and even worse them having those feelings towards you. I sure as hell don't, that's no fun and to think it's all because they don't understand the true you and the way you give and receive energy. We are all different and to instantly refuse someone because you don't like the way they talk or the way they live just makes you entirely ignorant. I'm probably the worst at this because I'm constantly looking into the way people act and trying to understand the way they do the things they do or say the things they say.I'm guilty ! Totally guilty and it is something that has been a real nuisance in my life, something that I can now say has been happily resolved. Maybe not entirely because being perfect is pretty impossible but being aware of your actions can make a world's difference.. Everyone knows you have to accept people for who they are but it all comes back to YOU. Before you can accept other people you first have to fully and lovingly accept yourself first. It always comes back to YOU because remember it's your life. No one else's, pretty cool huh.
I'm not saying you have to go out there and force yourself to get along with everyone. That is just never going to happen, at least in this world. Just accept them for who they are, send love their way and hope they pull their head out of their ass someday. In the mean time, always make sure to love yourself first !
Extrovert or Introvert? That is the question...or more so the topic.
This thought came up earlier this week as I was wandering through the internet on my phone. I have heard these two words before but never really grasped the idea, most likely due to not taking the dive into the depths of information on the ever so wondrous world wide web. Where else would I learn about it ? Well, I finally did and it has helped me to understand myself a whole lot and others as well, which is always helpful in trying to live symbiotically with others and maintaining a happy state. So, I'll fill you in on a little of what I have learned and also applying it has helped to give me a whole new perspective.
First introduced by the psychologist Carl Jung, the traits extrovert-introvert are a central dimension of human personality theories. According to Jung, introversion is "an attitude type characterized by orientation in life through subjective psychic contents." (focus on one's inner psychic activity) Pretty much an introvert gains their strength and energy by spending time alone, content in their thoughts and lost in their creative minds. Lost in a good way though. They usually gravitate towards the arts and prefer to have a few close friends and would rather talk about meaningful topics rather than just talking to talk aka "small talk." Being in large groups of people with a lot of activity and emotions going on can really drain an introverts energy leaving them tired and perhaps a little on edge. And then there are the extroverts, "an attitude characterized by concentration of interest on the external object." (the outside world) Extroverts are almost the exact opposite of introverts, gaining their strength and energy from other people and real life situations. They find pleasure by placing themselves in large social gatherings such as parties and community events. This is how they gain their energy and also how they prefer to exude it. Being alone can be very tiresome and boring for an extrovert. Okay, so introverts and extroverts, pretty simple concept and once fully understood
it can allow you to accept yourself and can also play a big part in accepting others that you normally cannot get along with simply because you receive and give energy in different ways.
I discovered that I am most definitely an introvert and it helped me to understand why sometimes I just flat out did not want to be around anyone because I was too tired from "socializing". I'd like to think that I am a pretty social person and I love going out with friends and going to parties but it never dawned on me that doing all that and being around a lot of people was actually emotionally and physically draining me. There would be days where I was just so tired and didn't want to be around anyone else but myself just so that I could recuperate. It wasn't from lack of sleep either, I thought it was so bizarre and I would fight it and try to keep up with the outside world. That just made it worse and resulted in me acting like a grumpy toddler who hasn't had their daily nap. It wasn't fun. After reading about introverts it helped me to realize that I really do need to be alone a lot of the time for my own personal health and well-being and should not feel guilty for turning down going out to socialize. I now know that you can't force yourself to be someone you are not and it's okay to do things for yourself because in the end, it is you and only you walking around in your body in this world. No one else, just you. So naturally, being around people who gain energy from large groups of people and constant attention to one self can really be a challenge for me sometimes. I never understood them. They came off as obnoxious and arrogant to me. After reading about this whole new concept of personality theories, I began to apply it in my everyday life and related it to my interactions with others and it has given me a whole new perspective ! Life actually presented itself with an opportunity to apply what I had learned and it helped me to see things more clearly. Always a good thing. The opportunity came about when I had met one of my roommate's friends, she was staying for a couple days. I usually always like people and always try and accept them but she was becoming increasingly hard to like as the night went on. She was loud. She talked about herself incessantly and had an act to go along with everything she said. She was overwhelming and it got to the point where I had to leave the room to be alone for some time. In that time, I reflected back on what I had learned and I soon realized that she was in fact 100% of the extrovert nature and instead of despising her and having these negative feelings towards her and also myself for feeling that way I just simply saw her for who she was and accepted everything about her. It was a huge relief and weight off my shoulders because now I was able to interact with her, in short bouts of course. I ended up coming out of my room and admitting to her that she was a lot for me to take in and it felt nice to come clean about how I felt. I talked to her about introverts and extroverts and continued to describe my nature to her. We instantly bonded and both felt comfortable just talking to one another. All because I simply reached out to her and cleared the confusion through acceptance of things that we cannot change.
Not only does it help you to understand yourself, it helps to understand other people and I believe that is equally just as important. I'll admit, I have trouble truly accepting people for all of who they are and I think we can all agree that this is a chronic problem in today's society. Refusing a person for who they are causes all sorts of bad feelings and who wants bad feelings toward another person and even worse them having those feelings towards you. I sure as hell don't, that's no fun and to think it's all because they don't understand the true you and the way you give and receive energy. We are all different and to instantly refuse someone because you don't like the way they talk or the way they live just makes you entirely ignorant. I'm probably the worst at this because I'm constantly looking into the way people act and trying to understand the way they do the things they do or say the things they say.I'm guilty ! Totally guilty and it is something that has been a real nuisance in my life, something that I can now say has been happily resolved. Maybe not entirely because being perfect is pretty impossible but being aware of your actions can make a world's difference.. Everyone knows you have to accept people for who they are but it all comes back to YOU. Before you can accept other people you first have to fully and lovingly accept yourself first. It always comes back to YOU because remember it's your life. No one else's, pretty cool huh.
I'm not saying you have to go out there and force yourself to get along with everyone. That is just never going to happen, at least in this world. Just accept them for who they are, send love their way and hope they pull their head out of their ass someday. In the mean time, always make sure to love yourself first !
Wednesday, August 21, 2013
Music Muse
Wednesday, July 24, 2013
Alright, enough whining on my end about life. Transcendental music is far more essential to ones freedom and what is even more important is the desire I have for every single soul out there to be able to experience the blissful feeling of listening & watching a live band put all of their heart and soul into a set and create something inspiring and soul-freeing for both the audience and themselves. It is truly a magical experience to be a part of. I'd like for all of you to open your eyes, your mind, and especially your ears to some beautiful music. The kind that gives you goose bumps and puts you in a place of complete happiness and bliss. Puts you right there in that moment in time and vibrates love all throughout your body. Love for yourself, love for your life, and the greatest love for the music that is bursting out from within. Music is everything & personally for me it's a way of life. I could not live without music. It soothes your soul, it reaches deep down there and sets you free.
Over the weekend I had the upmost pleasure in meeting & getting to know a little bit about a band that goes by the name ZuhG, a "funky, reggae, jazz, jam band."
They were playing Saturday night at a bar downtown called Frog & Peach. My friends and I decided to go out and we decided to go there because they always have a live band playing that you can dance with and forget where you are with a drink in hand, sometimes not if you are really gettin' down. I was super stoked this time around because my best friend and I were finally able to go out together. I wasn't really expecting anything, just knew it would be a good night for us. To our delight there was an eccentric, funky beatin', fun lovin' band jamming on stage when we walked in. I instantly felt their energy as I walked in from the back. My friends & I grabbed a couple drinks, whiskey of course, and sat down for a little bit and swayed to the band. It didn't take very long until we made our way to the front of the stage; swaying our hips, eyes closed, with our hands reaching to the ceiling and to the band. Dancing with the people you love the most to amazing live music is where I like to be, nothing else compares. We danced all through the set as if no one was watching, it was just Katie and I, shakin' our heads, shakin' ass, skankin', smilin' and having an unforgettable experience together all thanks to ZuhG. I couldn't shake the smile off my face, I was truly elated to have been in the presence of an inspiring group of individuals that are able to create that feeling within someone through their art. I wish more people would realize the true beauty and sound of original and authentic music extracted from the very souls of each musician. Each sharing something of their own self and coming together as one for the love of the music.
Go check out a local band or a band visiting your local bar, stop worrying about what other people are thinking of you and just let the music come over you and feed your soul. You will not regret it, I promise you this.
Anyways, thanks ZuhG for an amazing weekend. Happy trails to you on the road & I hope to see all of you again someday as you are all a rad group of individuals that I'd love to spend some more time with.
Over the weekend I had the upmost pleasure in meeting & getting to know a little bit about a band that goes by the name ZuhG, a "funky, reggae, jazz, jam band."
They were playing Saturday night at a bar downtown called Frog & Peach. My friends and I decided to go out and we decided to go there because they always have a live band playing that you can dance with and forget where you are with a drink in hand, sometimes not if you are really gettin' down. I was super stoked this time around because my best friend and I were finally able to go out together. I wasn't really expecting anything, just knew it would be a good night for us. To our delight there was an eccentric, funky beatin', fun lovin' band jamming on stage when we walked in. I instantly felt their energy as I walked in from the back. My friends & I grabbed a couple drinks, whiskey of course, and sat down for a little bit and swayed to the band. It didn't take very long until we made our way to the front of the stage; swaying our hips, eyes closed, with our hands reaching to the ceiling and to the band. Dancing with the people you love the most to amazing live music is where I like to be, nothing else compares. We danced all through the set as if no one was watching, it was just Katie and I, shakin' our heads, shakin' ass, skankin', smilin' and having an unforgettable experience together all thanks to ZuhG. I couldn't shake the smile off my face, I was truly elated to have been in the presence of an inspiring group of individuals that are able to create that feeling within someone through their art. I wish more people would realize the true beauty and sound of original and authentic music extracted from the very souls of each musician. Each sharing something of their own self and coming together as one for the love of the music.
Go check out a local band or a band visiting your local bar, stop worrying about what other people are thinking of you and just let the music come over you and feed your soul. You will not regret it, I promise you this.
Anyways, thanks ZuhG for an amazing weekend. Happy trails to you on the road & I hope to see all of you again someday as you are all a rad group of individuals that I'd love to spend some more time with.
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Love, of course.
It wasn't that I forgot to live, I had forgotten to love.
As described to my close friends & Dad, "aimlessly wandering through my days" not amused or passionate about anything around me. I also described it as becoming "bored" to some of my colleagues so that they didn't think I was completely nutso for thinking my life is boring and I have no purpose. It all seems so childlike writing about it now. But boy, when I was making myself believe that my life was that horrible, it was real. Very real. So, if I can make myself feel that badly, I sure as hell can make myself feel the polar opposite; entirely blissful. I, Breanna Rosas, forgot to love. I forgot to love everything. I forgot to love myself. I forgot to love my best friends, I forgot to love my parents, I forgot to love my life ! How is this even possible, I'm astonished that I have allowed myself to fall this deeply into a black hating abyss. I blame it on me being 21 and thinking I'm this badass rockstar but in reality I like succeeding and accomplishing things. I also like acting like a rockstar but I'm sure I can manage to combine the two and turn it into something entirely, life changeingly beautiful ! I like creating my own life right before my eyes. No, I fucking love it.
One more thing, (to all of us !) Don't be afraid to love either. Love everything and to hell with someone who's got something to say about it. They can hate their lives, at least you'll love yours & be eternally happy.
As described to my close friends & Dad, "aimlessly wandering through my days" not amused or passionate about anything around me. I also described it as becoming "bored" to some of my colleagues so that they didn't think I was completely nutso for thinking my life is boring and I have no purpose. It all seems so childlike writing about it now. But boy, when I was making myself believe that my life was that horrible, it was real. Very real. So, if I can make myself feel that badly, I sure as hell can make myself feel the polar opposite; entirely blissful. I, Breanna Rosas, forgot to love. I forgot to love everything. I forgot to love myself. I forgot to love my best friends, I forgot to love my parents, I forgot to love my life ! How is this even possible, I'm astonished that I have allowed myself to fall this deeply into a black hating abyss. I blame it on me being 21 and thinking I'm this badass rockstar but in reality I like succeeding and accomplishing things. I also like acting like a rockstar but I'm sure I can manage to combine the two and turn it into something entirely, life changeingly beautiful ! I like creating my own life right before my eyes. No, I fucking love it.
One more thing, (to all of us !) Don't be afraid to love either. Love everything and to hell with someone who's got something to say about it. They can hate their lives, at least you'll love yours & be eternally happy.
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
Cheers to Here !
Here it is. Here's me. Here I am cultivating everything that I love, here is me finally done sorting through the mess manifested in my mind. Here I am taking the fervent leap towards a wondrous life of love.
Join me.
Join me.
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